For eighteen years, I was in and out of Christian community. Any consistency of such was due to my role in some sort of leadership position. The feeling of being loved and cared for by any sort of community was often lost, and I had to learn to survive by leaning on my own strength.
Then I came JFC and discovered Christian community – authentic, real, true, pure Christian community. Despite this, in the past few weeks, I’ve really been struggling when it comes to faith. Did I tell anyone? Not really. My old feelings of dealing with emotions and circumstances on my own kicked in, and as a result, I held in a lot of confusion and frustration.
In the past few days, however, that feeling of doubt and confusion over faith has gradually lessened. As I look back, I see that a lot of my roller-coaster stemmed from being thrust into a completely Jesus-y community. All of the sudden, people cared and Scripture mattered. All of that at once threw me into some sort of roller-coaster of faith. Only in the last few days have I been able to figure all of it out and appreciate what has been Christian community at its finest.
My small group leader, JK, and I talk on at least a bi-weekly basis. That’s something completely foreign to me. I’m used to not having contact with small group leaders except on Sundays. On top of that, JK came to one of my Step Sing performances. That never happened where I came from.
Before and after performances, dozens of my friends shower me with hugs. That never happened where I come from.
At lunch, I always have a group of friends to eat with. That never happened where I come from.
The other day, one of our campus ministers contacted me about us having coffee together. That never happened where I came from.
In the past three days, I’ve had two of my close friends remind me that here, there is Christian community, even if that’s something I never had before. Here, people care.
Here, people call me beloved, just as the Father calls me beloved.
And “beloved,” being loved and loving others, is what Christian community is all about.